i can't stop thinking about sharif and how i want to be there with him and go on adventures.

i just found some great websites i need to remmeber

www.travelblog.org
www.costa-rica-guide.com
www.workaway.info

ahhghhhh!

i want to feel that energy again... so primal... so real...
is that state only acheived by drugs or can u get it sober?
NOT SURE.
maybe in years to come i will find out.
i feel that way when i listen to certain music
watch certain men
screaming, or on their knees begging
talking dirty to you

how can you feel so raw
love
love is the answer, sexuality.
not these guys that dress up in suits everyday and work 9-5
they are in discuses
its in those guys wiht the drumbeats
looking for the other side
come around

mood swwwinnnggg!!!

i just got an instant mood swing from creating my first glowing hula hoop!! yyayyyyeee!?!!

men

what does love mean? like true deep love?

my friend says that if you love someone you dont cheat on them, or dont even consider cheating because if you REALLY love them, then all of your happiness comes from being with them and you would never want to risk that.

hmmmm....
i thought i was in love but maybe not because i definalty make some slips of my own

if thats the definition then, i guess i was not

okay, easy enough i guess.

the only reason i do cheat is because i want to get back at my boyfriend at the time for making me mad.
probably not very healthy.

i wonder, is there any guys out there that actually dont want to have 3 somes or have multiple girlfriends!??!? maybe the guy thats already done all that and wants to settle for just one girl, i want to find him.

i hope he just finds me.

boxing

maybe if i stay in pa i will start boxing in philly. it seems to be the best place in the country to do it, so i probably should.

today

i had a nice day swimming in the forest with my friends.

i starting a new thought process and i am going to be single with no boyfriends, because they take over my life and then all i can think about is boys, and i must be thinking about myself now.

tomarrow should be intresting to see where fate spins me around.
i am going to call the job that i thought hired me, and if she says she doesn't want to hire me, i will go on the trail and walk to georgia, because i am tired of looking for work anymore.

signs have been pointing me in that direction for some time, so i figure that is where i should go if working falls through.